oh baby, I don't know how you live with yourself
sweet honey, you know I don't want no body else
I'm sleeping through the day
I'm (moping?) through the night
I hope you love me some day
so I can hold you through the night
and I don't know what to do
when I see you holding some one elses hand
and I don't know what to say
cause when I open my mouth I always sound so stupid...
I've been really sick lately. Fighting a really bad cold and a fever has left me exhausted and somewhat delusional. Since being sick, I've been having these terrible nightmares. Now, the only reason I call them nightmares is because I don't want to dream about these things. Reason being is because all my dreams are about Chad. My body is so exhausted from fighting this cold/fever, I've completely left myself open to think about him, goddamnit.
They aren't new scenarios though... They are just flashbacks. So in other words, I'm just being constantly reminded of everything I've lost. Like I really need that in my life at this time?? To make matters worse, when I wake up, I sit in front of the television in hopes that it'll make me drowsy and fall back asleep. However, when I turn it on and switch to my favorite station, I always see Diamond on a Landmine by Billy Talent. WTF. The one band that reminds me of him because thats where we met?! FML FML F..M..L..
I just want it to stop... Is that too much to ask for??
