I feel as though I am lying to myself. Lying to myself on what I want out of life, lying to myself about who I am and most of all, lying to myself about how I'm feeling.
Half of the time I feel as thought I'm just one big miserable blob that has been stuck on this planet to just wander and mope. Let the rain fall down on me just so I can be my usual sulky self. The other half of the time, I feel cramped and plastic. I'm faking this smile and this laugh that irritates even myself to no end. I need to own up to my real self...
I love you Chad David Mann. Even though you can be such an arrogant prick, I still seem to. To be quite frank actually, I hate that I fucking love your shitty ass guts.
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*sigh!* That's better! =)
1 comment:
Awww poor Mikaley. I think you needs a hug and that is what I will give you once I see you! But anyways typing responses to your thoughts and feelings on your blog don't mean much so if ya wanna talk in person bout it I'm always a listening ear for ya lass :D
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