Okay, now I know that everyone is probably pretty sick with this whole topic that I'm about to bring up... But to be completely honest, I am just so fed up with the bullshit that people are spewing about the whole situation. It's time to come clean and face the facts!!
So these are the renditions I've heard:
-*CENSORED* was told he broke up with you because you moved to Van and never even gave him notice just were like "Van is important and your not, I'm leaving" and took off with no discussion or explanation.
-You two split up after you moved to Van because he couldn't take being away from you and you wouldn't give him a chance.
-You were seeing someone else while you two were together and cheated on him non-stop. Then when you went to Van, you started seeing someone else right away.
...The list can go on and on and ON... HERE IS THE TRUTH GODDAMNIT!! So read carefully cuz I will only do this once!! =)
THE TRUTH:
I went to Vancouver for a VISIT. While I was out of town, I received a text message from Chad saying that he "couldn't do it anymore". Right off the bat, I asked, "what can't you do anymore?? what are you talking about?" So ladies and gentlemen, please let it be known... While I was out of town, VISITING friends... He actually broke up with me through a text message and here's the best part. Two days prior, he told me he loved me and couldn't wait for me to come home.
He never told me his real reason for ending things. I'm not sure why, but he can't even seem to face me when I confront him. I never did anything wrong. I never lied, I never cheated, I never manipulated. Yeah, I made a few mistakes in the relationship and we have fought. However, am I not human? Everybody makes mistakes. It's how you handle them and deal with the situation that makes the person. I am taking full responsibility for everything. Things I did do and things that never even took place.
AND AND AND!!!!! The only reason I moved to Van was because I couldn't stand seeing him after the fact. He actually pulled the 'friend card' afterward!! The whole line where one person ends up saying, 'It's over but I want us to still be friends.' Excuse me?! WTF?! How can you go from SUCH a serious relationship to just friends?! I desperately tried and it killed me. It tore me apart to see him everyday and know that I couldn't hold him, I couldn't kiss him... I couldn't be with him. And what put the cherry on top was the fact that he took everything so lightly!! He acted as though nothing ever happened and I was just always one of the guys. Do you know how heartbreaking that is?!?!?!
At the end of the day, I cannot deny that I still love him and care about him. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't think about him. (Which sometimes sucks.) It definitely makes getting over things that much harder and what makes that even HARDER is constantly hearing all the different ways I apparently broke Chad's heart. Try walking in my shoes for a moment... See where I'm coming from. And here's a concept!! The next time anyone is wondering what the hell is going on, try asking someone who is ACTUALLY involved. You'll get the truth!! Great idea, right? And to all the people out there who were spreading these blatant bullshit lies... Here's a great big FUCK YOUUUU AND HAVE A GREAT DAY!!!! =D
So now that I've vented my brains out... I think it's about time to go to bed. I mean, it's what? 5:40 AM on a Thursday?? Goodnight all!
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